tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74432740501109660062024-03-18T20:27:00.463-07:00just be *bipolar me*justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.comBlogger44125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-56626861203783792752018-03-12T23:14:00.001-07:002018-03-12T23:14:51.995-07:00Optimism (or: I'm terrible. Thanks for asking!)Q: How are you?
A: I'm terrible. Thanks for asking!
But, even though that is my honest answer to the question that EVERYONE always asks you, I am trying to be optimistic, even though my current situation is much less than ideal.
So, this is how I'm currently living......
Take one day at a time.
Smile.
Stop to "smell the flowers"
Take pictures.
Admire natural beauty.
Love.
Laugh.
Learn.
Live justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-31335350078694774732017-12-05T09:42:00.003-08:002017-12-05T09:43:09.628-08:00Good EnoughHave you ever felt
Like
You're not good enough
Like
Your best is not enough
Have you ever felt
Lost at Sea
In the Ocean of Life?
Have you ever felt happy
But Oh, so sad....
When will you be good enough
For more than just yourself?
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-19281823285809119232017-12-05T08:21:00.002-08:002017-12-05T08:21:44.614-08:00The Funeral by Band of Horses
Current Mood.....
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-41541016291207077482017-12-05T07:44:00.001-08:002017-12-05T07:44:43.452-08:00I'm Only HumanBroken
Beaten
Strung out
On dreams
Interrupted
Who am I?
Who are you?
Can we make it through the dark?
The dark creeps in
The light snuffs out
And suddenly
You stop
You have a switch
It's on or off
No in between for you
I have no switch....
I'm only human.justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-89097681264778832842017-12-02T07:06:00.003-08:002017-12-02T07:06:52.170-08:00Currently Listening to: The National
I Need My Girl
by The National
I can totally see this song from a significant other's perspective.....
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-21404387568489513492017-12-02T06:56:00.001-08:002017-12-11T02:30:05.194-08:00Cry Baby Cry by The National
Cry Baby Cry by The National
LYRICS:
Leave your home
Change your name
Live alone
Eat your cake
Vanderlyle, crybaby, cry
Though the waters are risin'
Still no surprisin' you
Vanderlyle, crybaby, cry
Man its all been forgiven
Swans are a swimmin'
I'll explain everything to the geeks
All the very best of us
String ourselves up for love
All the very best of us
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-62846300270498642952017-11-30T07:11:00.001-08:002017-11-30T07:13:27.441-08:00Prayer & Praying (Kesha) *Trigger Warning*
I don't pray, but I pray everyday to the powers that be in my Head.
🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏
😂 😂 😂
TRIGGER WARNING
You brought the flames and you put me through hell.
I'll just say this as I wish you Farewell
I'm proud of who I am.
No more monsters I can breathe again
And you said that I was done
Well, you were wrong,
And now the best is yet to come
.justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-89863333815050634152017-11-29T08:58:00.000-08:002017-11-29T09:02:09.769-08:00Hang up the Phone by Lipa Schmeltzer
The description on YouTube:
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In a futuristic take on his hit song Hang Up The Phone from his blockbuster album Leap of Faith, superstar Lipa Schmeltzer teams up with producer and director Danny Finkelman to tackle our justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-48973778078473706082017-11-28T07:17:00.006-08:002017-11-28T07:17:48.411-08:00Tuesday Tunes
TRIGGER WARNING
1-800-273-8255
[Pre-Chorus: Logic]
I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
(Who can relate? Woo!)
I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
[Chorus: Logic]
I don't wanna be alive
I don't wanna be alive
I just wanna diejustbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-44740120921224548942017-11-26T16:12:00.002-08:002017-11-26T16:12:30.964-08:00Reawakening
Reawakening
Feels like
Nothing I have known
and Everything I have wanted
Join me
Begin anew
Grab your job
Grab you bucket list
We will
Conquer
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justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-19701809892903218602015-05-25T14:33:00.000-07:002015-05-25T14:33:05.684-07:00Self-acceptance, Always (and a Mary Lambert Song)This could be a Saturday Song Day post (on a Monday), but I feel it is so much more.
Last year, I heard one of Mary Lambert's songs on the radio, and I really liked it. I was reminded of that song while reading Being Known as Bipolar Mom, a post from 2014 over at bipolarmom.com. Then I got to thinking... Mary Lambert mentions that she's "got bipolar disorder" in the song, but was that the justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-8837998928298067622015-05-17T21:53:00.001-07:002015-05-17T21:53:04.323-07:00Saturday Song Day 5/17/15
This post is a little late, but you know what they say - better late than never.
I'm often late with things. Such is my life.
Go Back by Dan Peppe
Performed below by Dan and Luca Peppe
Video below is not the best quality video, but I'm pretty sure it's the only one there is.
Some of my favorite lyrics are:
Go to a place where you still know who you are
A place to recover from your justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-13602848919172719992015-05-06T23:19:00.000-07:002015-05-06T23:19:39.849-07:00Happy Me vs Sad MeHappy me and sad me are battling again...The dark fingers are creeping in on the canvas of white.But, today?
Today - I fight.
I don't want to be that sad me. I don't want to gradually dig myself into a hole and fade away into the darkness.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life yo-yoing between hiding underneath the covers and coming up for air. I don't want to sleep my life away.
I want to justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-24791338286162302682015-04-25T20:51:00.003-07:002015-04-25T20:52:23.598-07:00Saturday Song Day 4/25/15
When We Were Young by Brett Dennen
Here's to feeling young forever!
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-76897170404866124222015-04-19T10:04:00.004-07:002015-04-19T10:04:50.031-07:00"I'm happy and I'm settled..."Photosynthesis by Frank Turner
Right now I'm living my days with music as a soundtrack to all the stuff I've got to do. Today I've been playing a lot of The Avett Brothers Pandora Station. When this song came on, I was really digging it. I looked up the lyrics, and found this gem:
"And I'm happy and I'm settled
In the person I've become"
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-76711370632369745152015-04-18T19:45:00.004-07:002015-04-18T19:47:49.738-07:00Saturday Song Day 4/18/05
The first one goes out to my husband: First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes
And another: Just Breathe by Pearl Jam (youtube video live at Austin City Limits)
Just Breathe
by Pearl Jam
Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,..
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands
the ones I love,..
Some folks justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-28384381720581729992015-04-11T09:05:00.002-07:002015-04-11T09:06:12.379-07:00Saturday Song Day 4/11/15
Today's Saturday Song Day choice:
Comes and Goes (In Waves) by Greg Laswell
Link to youtube audio with lyrics (unofficial video): Comes and Goes (In Waves)
Comes and Goes (In Waves)
by Greg Laswell
This one's for the lonely, the ones that seek and find
Only to be let down time after time
This one's for the torn down, the experts at the fall
Come on friends get up now you're not justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-24975650410300003232015-04-06T18:34:00.001-07:002015-04-06T18:34:19.542-07:00Accept It and Move OnAccept it and move on is a good motto to live by under certain circumstances...Why?
I lost a week of my life, but more importantly, I lost a week of my baby's life.I will never get that week back. I was there, at home with my baby, and then, I was not. Life continued in one way or another...And life continues still.This I know for sure.I've accepted it. I've moved on.And, probably partly becausejustbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-26096156136449961602015-03-28T20:44:00.000-07:002015-03-28T20:44:25.122-07:00Saturday Song Day 03/28/15Today's Saturday Song Day choice:
Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise by The Avett Brothers. Love them, their music, their lyrics....Link to youtube audio & video: Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise
This song and the lyrics really speak to me and how I've been feeling lately.
Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise by The Avett Brothers
In the fine print they tell me justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-28756266485672160162015-03-25T10:41:00.001-07:002015-03-25T10:41:52.275-07:00Today will be better, I swear!A song to start off the day: Today Will Be Better, I Swear! by Stars
(click on song title for link to audio on youtube)
Today will be better, I Swear. Easier said than done, right?
Right now my life is one string of cliches all jumbled together and jutting up against one another. I know that things WILL be better, eventually... but currently, while in the midst of trying to improve justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-41148634908454954882015-03-14T05:21:00.002-07:002015-03-21T21:23:40.042-07:00Saturday Song Day
I'm going to start posting here more frequently (or at least trying to). The one thing I want to start right away is regularly posting music that I love or music that I'm loving in the moment.So, starting with today, look forward to Saturday Song Day posts. YAY! It'll be a lot of fun for me to do these posts, and I hope you will get something out of it, too. Maybe you will discover a new justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-2829798102295180042015-03-14T04:29:00.005-07:002015-03-14T04:29:58.298-07:00LivingExhausted but happy. Love my baby. Love my husband. Always.Listening to:- of Monsters & Men: All the songs, basically- love the music, actually!:) HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :)
Gonna go hang out in the kitchen again.
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-64850999950520627172015-03-08T17:25:00.000-07:002015-03-08T17:26:32.256-07:00Oh, baby is here!February 26th, 2015. It's my son's birthday.
What? I have a son? WHAT?!!
Yup, and he's perfect.
Linden is my baby and my baby is a beauty :)
And now for a funny: I am a worthy human being! Darn you Mom!
justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-16731017690400297742015-01-04T15:58:00.000-08:002015-01-04T15:58:03.575-08:00Oh, baby!The last time I posted here was last year. Not only was it last year, but it was May of last year. Months ago.
I'd say that not much has changed, and that I didn't write because I had nothing to say. But, that's not true. I didn't write because I felt I had no reason to. Writing is therapy for me.. and I just didn't need it. I didn't feel the need to express myself. I've been stable, and justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7443274050110966006.post-7262099120145857742014-05-19T11:16:00.001-07:002014-05-19T11:16:31.079-07:00Thanks, MomFirst and foremost: Mom, I love you. You gave me life. You gave me joy. You gave me everything I have needed in life to survive and thrive.
We've had some difficult times, you and I.
But, we've made it through.
Why?
love
Love trumps all.
Love trumps negativity.
Love will squash negativity like an insect reduced to nothing but guts and a dark spot on the pavement.
(not that I am justbehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17201064883481612218noreply@blogger.com0